Relaxation

I wanted to take a moment to comment on the Autogenic Training/relaxation track that I had a chance to listen to earlier this evening.  Let me set the stage for all of you, so you better understand where I was emotionally before I did this.  Today was our big family Christmas party (35 people).  The dinner was a little after one and then after that was desert and then presents.  This is a very joyous time, the little children racing around taring into their presents, Christmas paper everywhere and smiles galore.  We did not get home till around 7:00 tonight, a very long day.  But-there was one thing missing in this day that brought so much joy, there was a little tears as well.  This was the first year that we as a family celebrated our Christmas party with out my Grandpa.  He passed away this last May.  My grandmother was very strong today, I only saw a few tears when she was given a gift that had Grandpa's picture and a beautiful poem.  She was not the only one who cried when reading this poem.  I tried to be strong, especially around my children, but when I got home and got the children to bed, it changed.  I opened a gift from my Aunt and Uncle that had a beautiful picture of my Grandpa and Grandmother, that broke me into tears, it hit me.  So after that I sat down to do my blog, and listen to my relaxation track.  I have to say it worked I became relaxed.  I could feel the blood move into my arms and hands-Autogenic Training.  I felt very relaxed but I did not feel that energy that he spoke of, he also said that I would not feel tired but feel relaxed.  I was relaxed but I felt very tired, even yawned several time.  Did it now completely work for me?  Did the day and the emotional feelings cause me not to get energized?  I may have been tired after it but I did feel relaxed and less tense.  Let me know what you are thinking.  Food for thought.